The Past...

Is it just me or does everyone sometimes feel the need to pull the covers over their heads when they think about stupid stuff they've done in the past. I've cried in front of tons of people (like sniffling and sobbing) at a friend's wedding during the speech I was giving. It was so pathetic! I've gotten too drunk to the point where I've been sloppy in front of people I didn't know, yet I have to see them at school eventually and soon cause it's such a small campus. I've been really mean to people for no reason whatsoever and god if I had the balls to apologize I would...but I don't! I guess there are instances that I regret in my life. I wish I didn't have any but I do! Who doesn't?! Shit, you must not get embarrassed easily then. I wish I didn't. I don't at the present moments but god when I think back on all the dumb, mean or embarrassing things I've done and said I really want to crawl in a hole and never come out. I guess I was just thinking about some stuff just now and felt the need to bitch to the world. 

Jealousy??

I was thinking the other day...why do couples get so jealous of each other? I didn't think those couples existed past the age of 18. Shit, jealousy is for high schoolers and sometimes not even then! If you come to find yourself or your significant other constantly jealous and fighting with you...then you don't trust the other person or maybe even yourself. Does that make sense? Trust is the biggest factor in a relationship...so is communication with the other person. If you don't trust the other person, then why are you even with them? Just to be with someone? God, that's sad. You might need to check into your subconscious and find out what kind of mommy or daddy issues you have before trying to start a relationship with someone else. FIGURE OUT WHO YOU ARE BY YOURSELF BEFORE YOU FIGURE OUT WHO YOU ARE WITH SOMEONE ELSE AS A COUPLE! 

The reason why I feel the need to bitch about this topic is not a personal thing. My boyfriend and I fully trust each other and our communication skills can falter sometimes but most of the time we tell each other what's up with our feelings and whatnot. If there are some things I don't feel I can talk to him about, I go to my girlfriends or my sisters. It drives me insane when I'm out with a friend and their boyfriend or girlfriend is blowing up their phone when they know where they are and/or who they're with. Shit, I've done out of town before and stayed with two guy friends of mine that my boyfriend has never even met before. Did he become jealous or even ask questions? No. Because he trusts me and knows that I would never cheat on him...because we trust each other. We even know not to call each other that much when we're not with each other because we know that separation is healthy for couples and it's ok to be apart from one another and hang out with other people. If someone else happens to be flirting with us, we call each other to tell them about how funny it is. Especially if a guy is hitting on me at a party or bar cause we all know how guys can be in those situations...awful yet slightly entertaining. I told him about a good looking guy that hit on me at the Flying Saucer once, and he said "good, baby." He knows that's a self-esteem boost for me.  I'm just saying if people are in a jealous relationship...GET OUT OF IT! It's pointless. Again, I'm just sayin...

Last weekend of August 2009

Ok so I started this blog for a few reasons: I'm bored, I have three hours to kill every mon,wed, and friday in between the only two classes I have, and I'm a mega dork with nothing better to do on a basically empty campus when my condo is fifteen minutes away...

Anyhoo, I went out to Young Avenue Deli on Thursday and it was pretty fun. It was great seeing some alumni friends that I haven't seen since BBQ Fest. They're a lot easier to hang out with than the people I go to school with, sometimes. Some of the girls on this campus can make a grown man shiver just by one dirty look. I don't know what it is exactly but this COLLEGE is a helluva lot like high school all over again. Sometimes those certain girls will fake a smile and say things like "we totally need to hang out more" when I randomly run into them. It takes a lot in me not to say 'ha, yuh right...' I know they mean well but sometimes...bitches can be cruel! I went out Friday for a friend's bday at Dan McGuiness...the one by Target? I believe it may have been senior citizens night. The band was a blast from the past and the ol' folks were gettin down. It cracks me up every time I see old people dancing...I debate whether or not I need to keep 911 ready on my phone just in case one of them crashes to the floor and breaks a hip...serves ya right, stoopid! I was one of the few sober that night due to some delish yet questionable sushi I had for dinner. No sushi in Memphis compares to the good stuff in New Orleans or New York...that shit is phenom! However, that's how sushi supposed to taste...fresh? yea. Saturday I went out to campus to meet a few people at a party. I've heard that the newbies or the youngins don't really know how to throw down at a party...I'm starting to believe the rumors. Don't get me wrong, I love seeing everyone but the parties are quite tame. Honestly I don't mind it one bit. By the time I got there all the beer was gone so I had a friend meet me there with a 12 pack of canned bud light. I gave a few to a guy friend of mine and we went strolling around the volley ball court due to boredom at the party. There was a good group of people but I don't know anyone anymore! It sucks! All my close friends have graduated! Oh well, my time will come soon..*please,god!* We came across campus security with our beers in tow and did they give a shit? not so much. I'm 23 and my friend is 21. That's legal in my neck'a'tha woods and last time I checked this is not a dry campus. This little turdy lookin kid came up to us telling us that the beers need to be in a cup or out of site. *Well, bitch why you still here lookin at em?!?!* I asked him why and with a lisp he said 'cause that's the policy.' Obviously he was an R.D. or R.A. or something had gave too much of a shit about his job...which in turn gives him the title 'super douche' the rest of the year. He looked like a kid who's probably gonna end up in the nervous hospital one day. So, what did I do? I mouthed off to him along with my friend laughing at my side and the turd scampered away. Do I feel bad? Not really. That kid shoulda figured out a long time ago that life should not be lived in an uptight manner...just sayin. Even though we felt compelled to stay at the volleyball court and drink more straight out of the cans...we quickly got bored and left. You've won this time, super douche! 

Yesterday was pretty amazing. I live in Harbor Town and we've all come to realize that it really is a stimulus package when you move down there. We have pool days and cook outs and picnics and make any excuse to drink yet we don't have far to go considering most of us own a golf cart. It's awesome living down there. We took a bunch of food and goodies down to the park on our golf carts and had a picnic by the river around sunset. Where else can you do that in Memphis and get home on a golf cart?! Eventually my boyfriend made our way home and ended the weekend with chicken tenders and watching Food Network...now that's love. 

Again, I've started this blog due to boredom between classes and I hope that you've enjoyed reading my thoughts, exactly. Look for more to come.